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Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Little Man is Cozy.

You guys, I've tried so hard this past week to get this baby out since Spencer is home and the house is put together.
I went on multiple walks throughout the day
I used a little extra energy walking up and down the stairs at the house
did 45 full squats
ate 2 pineapples
drove on rocky roads
did jumping jacks
bounced on the birthing ball
put an extra skip in my step
walked major flights of stairs
Nothing worked. Obviously.
Now here I am, 39 weeks pregnant and no sign of baby.
But I've had enough pineapple even the smell could make me sick, and my legs have never been so sore from doing so many squats. It's certainly been a while..
I had my weekly appointment with my midwife and I haven't dilated at all since she last checked me three weeks ago. I was having THE WORST braxton hicks contractions, about
8-9 an hour that were pretty intense, but still weren't painful.
Now I'm having zero.
Look tiny dude, I'm a little scared too.
I've never been a mom before, and this world is kinda crazy.
But I'm ready for you anytime now. And I promise you'll be safe.
I will mess up along the way, but I'll try my hardest to be a good mom and I'll love you no matter what.
In the mean time, I'm trying to be patient..

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

A Sigh of RELIEF

I am so relieved and have felt such a huge burden lifted off my shoulders since Spencer got back home from North Dakota. I get so bummed when he's gone, it's much nicer having him close.
We accomplished SO much this past weekend and got completely moved into our new house! The weekend consisted of moving boxes, cleaning our apartment, sleeping at our new place for the FIRST time, putting food in our fridge, parking in our very own garage, installing the new front load washer and dryer, hanging things on the walls, finishing the nursery, trying to convince Winston it was safe to come out of his cage, and trying to convince baby boy it's okay to come out anytime now. We used an oven for the first time in like 6 months (apartment oven broke..) ate pizza & watched a movie. Perfect.
It's been so much fun putting the place together exactly how we want it. We went over to our apartment on Sunday to grab a few last things we left there and I started to cry as I walked through checking closets and drawers. It was so bittersweet to leave that place. We've had trouble with neighbors and have wanted to get out of there soo bad.. but at the same time we have so many memories there. The first two years of our marriage are in that little apartment, our first place together!
We discovered the baby car seat doesn't fit in my car. Like... at all..
Not sure why I didn't think to check it a few months ago- I assumed it would fit just fine, obviously. WRONG. so.. now we are in the process of looking for a car. Lovely.


We couldn't convince Winston to walk on the tile.. he HATES it. So as we were unpacking boxes Spencer broke them down and laid them out on the floor to make a pathway from his cage to the carpet in the living room. He slowly checked it out and hopped back and forth on the cardboard. We're going to leave it down forever.
Just kidding.
We've still got lots of updates. But for now, stuff is coming along just lovely.
We are so excited and have felt so lucky.

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Gifts for L&D Nurses

I've seen so many cute things on Pinterest about having little gifts for the Labor & Delivery Nurses and I think that's such a great idea!
I don't know if you read Dear Person Reading This blog.. {if not, you totally should..}
But she posted something really cute that she did for her nurses too and it really got me thinking about it! You can find her post HERE.
I wanted to do something super simple because, really.. it's just going to be another thing for me to remember to bring to the hospital. And as much as I like to be organized & prepared.. once labor starts or my water breaks, I can't guarantee that in my full panic mode, I'll remember these things. So simple is good.
I found this picture on Pinterest and loved it.
I traced it from Pinterest back to the lovely Taryn over at Design, Dining + Diapers
I LOVE it when people have printables because I have zero idea how to make anything even remotely close to that.
I printed a bunch of these cute labels and decided to buy candy + goodies. I LOVE her idea for the mini mason jar complete with the burlap top, twine and salt water taffy, but unfortunately I do not have time for that right now.
Here's how my version turned out:
I figured if people are going to put up with me & help us out while I'm hysterically crying calmly delivering a baby, they deserve a sweet treat. ;)

Monday, July 14, 2014

38 Weeks.

Today I am 38 weeks pregnant
and it's so hard to believe it's gone by this quickly. I feel like I should have a few more months left, not two weeks.
Yesterday morning I woke up with lots of pressure and weird cramping. Baby was moving like crazy and I was terrified I was about to go into labor. I sloooowly got out of bed to get a bottle of water and laid in bed for another hour until it stopped.
No labor, guys.. We're good! Spencer is in North Dakota for work until later this week too.. So I'm keeping my legs fingers crossed that little dude can be patient for a little while longer. He's soo low and I'm feeling quite a bit of pressure today..
I have a doctor's appointment this afternoon & it's been the same stuff over and over lately. "you're doing well" "no protein in your urine" "your belly is measuring right on"
I had my midwife check me at 36 weeks and I was dilated to almost a 2. I'm not going to have her check me again because I don't want to mess with anything, and I'd rather not know if I've dilated any more until Spencer is home. Out of sight out of mind, right?
Well, I guess it would be more like out of mind, out of mind in this case considering I can't see my own cervix. {Fortunately.}
Anyways, I figured I'd do my outfit post for today. I've really been wondering how many more days I'll get to dress this bump. I try not to think about it because I get so bummed out.. I've loved having this bump soo much and I really have enjoyed every second of being pregnant. I still can't quite wrap my head around the fact that In two weeks (or less?) I'll be actually HOLDING the little dude!
One day I'm just Mikell & wife, and then... suddenly I'm mom too.
I can't comprehend it.


Skirt: Agnes & Dora. I bought it one size up to fit the bump but I ended up not liking how long it was. Not quite maxi skirt and it felt really awkward so.. I just hiked it up over the bump today.
Shirt: Forever 21. It's normally long, but I tied it above the bump today.
Shoes: Dolce Vita. My fav.

Wednesday, July 9, 2014


SOO.. The last week or so has been a little nuts. Our typical lives as of lately.

I got the carpets cleaned and built the glider chair for the nursery! Once Spencer was home from North Dakota we spent every waking minute trying to pack things up in the little amount of time that Spencer was here before he left for work again. I put the crib together while Spencer was unloading boxes and I wanted to cry. Our place still doesn't have air conditioning and the upstairs is at least 100 degrees of hot, stuffy air. Miserable.

{sneak preview} 
It's funny how much relief I feel just having the crib put together..

We've purchased a fridge that has nothing in it but bottled water, Gatorade and a few pudding packs. But I mean, really.. what else do you need?
I bought my first major appliances this week also. Front load washer/dryer and I was actually so excited about it I felt some depression from realizing that's a sign I'm getting old. Who would have thought I'd be excited about a washer/dryer??
{You should have seen how excited I was about buying baby laundry detergent}

..Then I got tired of walking through Lowes for the millionth time this month and made Spencer push me in the cart. He's a good man.
 We spent the whole 4th of July packing and moving boxes back and forth. I really wasn't much help so Spencer left me at the apartment to box small stuff up and he took load after load after load down to the house by himself. I really wanted to nap, and he wanted me to nap, but my heart broke every. time. we walked back in the front door to get another load and was more exhausted than the last time. Again, he's a good man.
We stopped moving boxes around 7:30 and went to my parents for a BBQ and red, white and blue Popsicles.
Winston has LOVED having boxes and things to climb around on while we've been packing. He thinks we've been setting up new playgrounds for him all along!

{Those fabric scraps he's laying on were originally going to be turned into burp cloths for the baby.. but Winston has taken ownership of them since. They are now WINSONS burp cloths.}

 Sunday night I couldn't sleep at all because I was so sick. This is the third week I've had my cold and it kept getting worse. I just sobbed when Spencer woke up and he went with me to Instacare as soon as they opened. I have a horrible sinus infection and have been on antibiotics that are sloooowly helping.
Spencer went back to North Dakota yesterday morning for a 10 day work period. This is such a great opportunity for him and we are soo excited about it. He should be back the evening of the 17th. I'm hoping this baby decides he's cozy for a while and stays put until Spencer is back. If I start laboring he can take a company vehicle to drive home or they're going to do their very best at getting him on the first flight out.
I'm 37 weeks pregnant this week & I woke up this morning feeling a little different. Baby dropped over night and I am feeling him SO LOW today. I'm trying so hard to take it easy. We've still got so many boxes to move into the house and I have so much to do before Spencer gets back. Right now it's hard to have things in both of our places- I want as much moved into the house as possible but living there is out of the question with how scorching hot it is. I can't even describe..
We have to be out of our place and have it cleaned BY the 21st of this month so we're in a bit of a crunch and there's not much either one of us can do about it with Spencer being gone and me needing to take it easy.
Besides all of that, I'm feeling really good for being "so pregnant" and I'm still really comfortable. I love my growing bump so much I'm honestly going to be sad to lose it.
{but hopefully I  DO lose it, eventually?} I'm sleeping really well at night and I still have a significant amount of energy. I bought baby's changing table yesterday and I'm looking forward to *carefully* putting that together this weekend.
...Things are moving right along...

Thursday, July 3, 2014

To My Dude.

To my favorite dude.
My rock, my priesthood holder, my love & my very best friend.

You left town this week and I sobbed as you packed your bags. You said something funny about how I used to love it when we were first married and you would go back to Vernal for 2 weeks for work. One week with you here, and two weeks with you being in Vernal leaving me in an apartment all to myself. An apartment that, for two whole weeks, didn't have laundry on the floor or in the window sill of our bedroom. Your bathroom door opened all the way because there weren't clothes behind it, and the remote controls stayed exactly where I left them. There weren't empty otter pop or go-gurt wrappers on the coffee table and the scissors stayed in the kitchen drawer.

As I curled up in the guest bed last night wiping my sick-with-a-cold snotty nose and swollen crying eyes I realized something. That this miss-independent, I-can-do-it-myself girl you've known for so many years, really has come to rely on you for so many things. I'm sure it happened long ago, but after 2 years and 4 months of being married, you really are my better-half.

I was once told that you can't fully love someone else until you learn to love yourself first. I think that's true.. but I also think that I've learned to love myself, and be patient with myself because you see the good in me. You tell me you love me and when I look in the mirror I see what you see. Maybe I'm not so great at being wonderful all the time. I've been onry, I've been so stubborn, I've been a complete pain in the ass. But ultimately you've made me better. You put into perspective the things that really matter and I've realized it's better to be loving than distant. It's better to forgive quickly than hold grudges, and hugging always fixes things.

You've become so much more than husband. You've taken on the role of care taker, confidant, foot massager and baby belly holder. You've taken birthing classes with me even when I know you didn't want to. You've cooked me dinner, you get snow cones with me, you've stood up for me, and no matter what you always take my side. You even let me pick paint colors that I loved, even though you hated them. AND you told me the colors looked good, even though I know you thought otherwise. You've loved my family and taken care of papa {which is a hard task} You've laughed at his ridiculous jokes & you've made stupid jokes yourself. That occasionally get me to laugh really hard.

Sometimes I catch you looking at me during movies because you like to watch my reactions. You hug me when I'm angry & tell me I'm pretty after I take my makeup off. Even if some of it is still smeared around my eyes. You tell me I look beautiful when I'm all ready for church even though my dress doesn't quite fit anymore and I tried on 6 different outfits. Just when I'm trying so hard to be strong, whether it's for me or you, or just the mere fact that I'm trying to keep sane, you tell me just in the nick of time that everything is going to be okay.
And I believe you.

I knew you were someone special from day 1. Thank you for being so patient and understanding with me, and loving me even with I least deserve it. I couldn't have asked for a better husband. You have truly become my best friend and my best partner in crime.
You're a total goofball and I'm so thankful for that. I really do swoon over you making up your own words to songs even though I want to correct you. {And I do correct you most of the time.} I loved it when you told me you wanted juggling balls and a hair dryer for Father's Day, and how you make fun of the way I say "baby carrots". I love it when you ask me if your hair looks okay and when I tell you something in your wardrobe doesn't match and you say, "yes it does." I hate that you call Jax "Jack" and peanut "peanuts" because you only do it to bug me. But yet I still laugh out loud every. time.

I love that we've created our own life together. We've moved into an apartment, bought Winston and our fish, decided to have a family together, bought a home....
I love that we've done these things together. You were supportive of me when I was in school and I try to do the same for you. We love different things and have so much to offer each other. I love dreaming of our life together and imagining how things will be next year, or in 5 years, or 10 years.. and I love knowing you'll be by my side the whole time.  

I have come to realize that I rely on you for so much more than I would like to admit. But I think that's a good thing. I've realized that I'd rather have your clothes strung throughout the house and the remote controls in between the couch cushions than have an apartment all to myself. I'm okay picking up otter pop wrappers and putting the scissors back in the drawer over and over if it means you're sitting on the couch by me.
{don't think this is me giving you permission btw.. you can still pick up your own clothes & otter pop wrappers..}

I'm so happy to have you forever
and Baby Mack is going to be one lucky kid to have you as his dad.

I love you so much.

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Horrible timing

Just when I feel like things are so messy and crazy {In a good way, if that's even a thing..} I get sick. I haven't had a day of sickness this whole pregnancy and last Wednesday I just knew I was in for it. We had big plans to paint and get things at the house done early- we didn't want to have the carpets cleaned until painting was done and we had a couple day set back with me being so sick. I didn't go to work on Thursday which hasn't happened since I don't remember.. and it was actually quite incredible to lay in bed all day. Thursday was also the first time spencer saw me puke and I felt bad about it all day. He says he didn't see. He's either an incredible liar and made me feel better or he's trying to block it from his memory. Probably the latter haha 

Friday we finally got running water at the house just to find the water pipe leaks. We had a plumber come look at it and $250.00 later, the pipe is good as new. But then he discovered the sink leaks. Joy. Saturday we spent all day at the house taping and painting three bedrooms. I started to feel really sick {no AC people} and wanted to lay down but we have no furniture there yet. I went to lay in the corner and there was a spider web so instead I went to the middle of the floor and all I could see was freaking dog hair everywhere and wanted to scream. I really can't wait to get the carpets cleaned. I called my mom and cried. Spencer asked me to go home and rest but I think I have a complex about helping and doing things on my own. As I was Kim Kardashian human ugly crying I'm the kitchen I repeatedly told spencer he's "not the boss of me" when he would tell me to go home and rest. Which now it seems hilarious. That man has a heart of gold. We finally turned on the air conditioner to find that's broken too. Awesome huh!? 

Anyways, here are some pictures of the rooms we are updating.. 
Here's spencer painting the master bedroom. We matched the original color the best we could. It's slightly lighter which we ended up loving because it brightens things up a bit! This mask was the stupidest idea ever. Whoever invented it clearly had never worn one before. It was so hot and I felt like I was suffocating after breathing in my own carbon dioxide over and over. Awful.

This is the same wall in the Master Bedroom- Notice the smudges & marks in the paint, it's kind of hard to see but It absolutely drove me crazy and I'm so glad they're gone.

This is the third bedroom and the walls were an awful yellow color with purple in the windows. We painted it the same color as the Master Bedroom so it was just something nice and neutral and we love it.
Next up, the Nursery..

There are these incredible built in shelves in Mack's room which I love love love. The whole room was the same Neutral color but we wanted to do something a little different for the Nursery. Mack's room colors are going to be blue, green & grey. Here's my sweet mom and pink gma starting to paint the grey, and it turned out amazing.

Isn't Pink Gma the best?


I know, I know, it looks a little bright right now. But it's going to turn out awesome when you see the final results!

I'm excited to do a final home tour. We are slowly but surely comin' right along here!